I’m lacking inspiration for what to write today. I’ve been feeling like crap all day. My head just will not stop pounding.
I just decided to sit and watch my ultrasound videos. I have no idea why – lord knows it only brings back happy memories that I now wish I hadn’t taken for granted. I know that watching the videos just make me sad, even though at the time seeing Finley on screen was always exciting.
I’m tired. So tired. I think sometimes I can feel the build up of everything getting on top of me. It builds and builds until I have a day or so to just let it all release. I can feel that build up happening now. I can feel the tension vying for release.
I miss my boy so much. SO MUCH! No amount of crying or shouting or feeling sad or missing him will bring him back – and that sucks.