Today I had a wonderful day. It wasn’t a special day and we didn’t do anything extraordinary, but it felt lighter than I have felt I a very long time.
I spent months of my pregnancy being sick and I was grumpy because of it. And instead of experiencing the joy I should have felt at being a new mum, I was left in shock and despair while mourning for my son.
Today my husband and I spent the morning tidying the house. I was in a good mood. We then got ready and went into town. We had a lovely lunch, did some shopping, had a coffee and then did our weekly food shop. We laughed together. We were able to speak about Finley without tension. I felt joy at being with my husband whom I love, and I felt like my old self. I was truly able to see the good and be thankful for it.
I needed a day like today. So often the sad and overwhelming negative feelings prevail. But today gave me hope for a future where we can be happy while remembering Finley and keeping his memory alive.